P.C. My 11 year old sister!
Do you love yourself enough?
I feel like I don’t love myself as much as I ought to. I mean my friends and family always says “you’re pretty. Beauty comes from within etc etc” and it’s not that I don’t agree with them- but I feel like there are so much beauty in this world mine isn’t enough to make me happy.
I do get Jace Herondale -ish jealous of my own pictures with filter on. If only I looked like that irl... and it’s just depressing!
But I do feel like I love myself more the past year; mostly because I realised I was worthy of it. I always felt like I was a burden- like I didn’t belong. I mostly felt useless and pathetic- with no achievements of my own. But then I did do REALLY good in my O Levels last year and I realised that working so hard during the whole 2018 days paid off and I wasn’t completely hopeless! So that is probably why I love myself more nowadays.
Musings PART 1
Continuing from yesterday, Where are the boundaries in our religion?
So my religion promotes equality. It ensures everyone has equal rights. It prevents lying, backbiting, murder, stealing, being rude or arrogant, anger and depression, fanning people’s ego, receiving/ giving bribe, receiving/ giving interest- basically anything that makes one superior over another.
The whole world is made up of liars, thieves, kings and slaves. Here’s where the ‘boundaries’ come. People are used to these habits- because it makes them feel powerful - it’s some kind of animal instinct that is beyond my ability to decipher. But we all like power- as harsh as the truth sounds, I’m done with lies. Will you believe if I say I’ve never uttered a single lie in the first 11 years of my life? Yes, I was happy. I still can’t lie to my parents- and I usually get into trouble for that.
But it’s not that difficult to rid ourselves of these bad habits. We’re all foolish humans and we make all the stupid mistakes. We all have dark secrets and fatal flaws. But as long as we have it in us to repent- to feel bad for doing bad- we have hope. The doors of forgiveness are open till our death.