Laying in a pool of blood & pain and mourning for my unborn child , little did I know that worst was yet to happen .... I overheard the lady doctor’s words - “she will die as she has lost so much blood and her pulse is going... , let’s call her family members, we need to do surgical procedure immediately.....” In my subconscious state I could sense the whole staff running here & there , more than 10 nurses & doctors attending me ... my mother & my husband’s puzzled & panic looks and me going into deep sleep.
I was loosing consciousness and leaping to extreme darkness yet in that darkness I could see the face of my child.
In the backdrop of my kid’s sad face , there was a firm determination and “a Desire to Live” - to Live for my Son.
That very moment, I was no more mourning, no more complaining like why this happened and why Me ? .... BUT in that moment, I just wanted to breath , to get a sense that I am alive and to hug my child.
It was no more about my life , my dreams , my holidays , my home , my happiness....BUT it was just about to LIVE and LIVE for my son.... The sad face of my son looking at the Stars to find Me, wiping his tears , missing Me for little pampering , little care , little hugs and his fake smile to convey that “All is fine “ ... killed me inside and I wanted to fight against the death... That day I understood why we call “Kids Our Life...”. My whole body , my organs , the blood following in each cell wanted just to breath & Live ... Live to see my kid growing ... Live to see my kid failing & winning the hurdles ...
Live to Live my Kid’s Life ... I collected all my energy to fight for my Life ....and now the extreme pain , agony ,blood doesn’t mattered at all.
All that mattered to me was to come out of OT with open eyes as I had the fear that if I close my eyes,it will get closed forever & ever ... When I finally came out of OT, there was smile on my face & gratitude towards God & longing to hug my son.
Guys !!! Be happy as God has been kind to you always & value the God’s greatest gift to us - The Life”
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