"It’s not that I didn’t ever have moments of doubt that I was making the right call; I definitely did. It’s not that I didn’t go through debilitating grief when I said goodbye to my son; I literally collapsed when he left the hospital without me. But while I had many moments when I thought, 'I am definitely going to go with this adoption thing,' not once did I ever think, 'I am definitely going to be the one to raise my son.'”
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