I just realized recently that when people used to say I am a strong woman, based on the things I have gone through, I would accept it. This is especially based on the fact that, I had truly built so much muscle by carrying my loads, ALL OF THEM, on my back. When I shared my struggles and people didn't relate, I felt weaker and more exposed, so I started holding back and taking everything myself. I would smile with the crowds and cry in solitude.
I got to a place where I was totally exhausted. I decided to change my prayer game, especially because I felt like God wasn't listening to my #prayers
. I also asked a few close people to stand in the gap for me, in prayer! As I prayed for revelation, God taught me practically, even as late as last week, that I need to stop thinking I am in control. I need to stop trying to solve the problems I had given Him, because I feel like He is not seeing the urgency. It's painful in the human understanding, and you get shocked and shaken. God, however says,
"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart, and lean NOT on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight." It doesn't mean you will get all the things you want. It means He will make your paths straight according to His will, using His understanding which is holistic. He knows what will happen even before it does. Nothing catches Him by surprise.
My new way, as I continue to learn, I give all my burdens to God and trust that He will guide me on what to follow, align me with my destiny helpers and walk with me to settle what is owed.
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