This one hurt my heart. This whole situation we all find ourselves really makes me extremely sad and angry. We all are on some level. As a highly sensitive empath, I really get hit much harder by shit than most people realize or understand. I feel the energy, the sadness, despair, pain on a really deep level. You might not realize from looking at me irl but I still don't manage that force of energy well and I deal with it sometimes by lashing out, it builds up and causes extreme frustration and exhaustion. Everyone copes differently, some harass and bully people. I write my emotions, in different ways. I express myself in many ways. It can be provocative, agressive, sad, angry, horny...I never really know. Or I just sleep. I try to stay in an energy of love and compassion and in my unique often misinterpreted sense of humor. But it's not easy, especially in these times. It comes out in ways I can't always control. It's too much. And this epidemic with everything else I'm dealing with in life is too much. I try to tune as much out as possible and just do my thing but the energy or vibration of it all doesn't leave me. I know I'm misunderstood here and I'm okay with that now. I'm a slow learner but when something clicks inside of me, it stays. I know what I'm on this planet for. We all have a part to play and we need to raise our vibration of ourselves and this planet. And I'm always trying. Even if people don't see or underestimate that. People are hurting right now. It's a fact. People are scared. And I FEEL that energy and I realize those aren't MY feelings but the feelings of the collective and I need to stay in a loving, healing, unafraid energy as much as possible. Everyone is in my heart and prayers, including everyone who hurts me. We all need love, compassion & understanding in these dark, difficult times. We need to be fucking considerate of EVERYONE who is and will be affected. How many more people have to die. It makes me so angry and I can't help that. It's infuriating. .